When it Ain't Enough: The One Up Factor

I'm a natural born competitor, and when I can't surpass, I withdraw. Extremist personality I believe.. part of the Virgo make-up.

Never paid much attention to the smug look that my face may often hold ( as demonstrated in this photo ) until someone brought it to my attention. Then I thought about it.. winced/smiled/chuckled to myself/and Kanye shrugged.

The feeling of wanting to be the best may come from early days of always having what I wanted, in fact, I know it did. Highest grades in my favorite courses. Fashion choices. Undeniably handsome men ( love those years ) and much more in between, I chose to spotlight my favorites:)

There has always been the what's next factor for me. This guy is dull, wonder if his best friend is a little more.. amazing. This job is lackluster, time to find the next.. fulfilling position. I'm over these shoes, time to get a new pair.. like, NOW.

.. and then, when I'm not 100 percent on.. I'm off of the map. Completely. (working on that.)

The thought of having children bores me. The thought of the world being my oyster.. totally excites me.    

Doing well.. fine.

You wouldn't believe how well I'm doing.. I'll take that.

I must say, the rapid growth of 303 Dolls excited me.. and now, I need more. It's my addiction, and I'm happily a fiend for it. The success that has taken over my vision makes me simply swell with excitement. My obsession with the one up factor will take me where I want to go with my companies.

Guaranteed.

On a Colorado Note: The Thursday Files: Men that Show their Women how to be Women. THAT ONE.

Sooo.. Thursdays are always dedicated to discussing wonderful things that have happened during the week... and so..

!! Rah rah shish koom bah!! I love it.

Now on to something else that has been on my mind.

I've heard Beyonce acknowledge Jay Z for it.. I've heard Jada give Will Smith props for it..

.. and when I'm not acting as superwoman, I give my husband kudos for it.

The men that captured our hearts were somehow also able to show us how to be women.

It started with wonderful parents, which I have. Laying out the foundation. Which sends one off into the world with the tools you'll need for life. While on your own, you may pedal without those training wheels like a rockstar.. or you may go off of the beaten path, needing to keep those training wheels on awhile longer, but no matter what, if you were raised well.. you never forget what's right.

As life continues, more often than not we find our mates. Not the guys you date along the way.. your eternal mate. THAT ONE. You initially capture his heart because you are one hell of a woman. Now here is the awesome thing-

THAT ONE is able to see greatness in you that you have not even seen in yourself yet, and he encourages you. He supports you. He almost sits you in front of a mirror, tells you to look past your initial self, so that you can see it too.. and with each passing day, it happens.

One day.. you may be right in the middle of putting your shoes on.. and it will come to you. You will realize your growth. That you are the person that your parents hoped you'd grow up to be as they raised you. With a little help from THAT ONE. The person who is your ace for all days to come.

It's not so much that the men who capture our hearts have shown us how to be women. It's really how they're meant for us, and have simply been there as we transform from girls, to women.

The guy in this photo with me.. ^

He's my "THAT ONE."

Perfect Fit

One of the greatest things about life is "looking over your shoulder" and being so happy that you have passed where you once were. What you went along with, although you did not believe in it. Who you allowed yourself to become, because you didn't have the strength or sense enough to see the wrong in it.

Not to say that looking into the past is nothing but a myriad of "what the hells" "and that was stupids."

Oh there was fun.

Great fun.

The "I don't have a conscious and I'm going with it" sort of fun. Dating Los Angeles husbands fun. Going 100 in a 25mph zone fun. Frolicking on the ground of a night club parking lot with a friend as they wait with you after one of your stalkers slashed your tires and you have to wait for a tow truck fun.

Oh that's not even the half..

buuut.. it was my fun.

That go with the flow living held times that I will always cherish.. as wild as they were.. it was my life at the time.. and I was present and somehow.. loving it.

Age 31: I met my now husband, and thank goodness I did. His patience, his wisdom, the way he loves me.. it was RIGHT on time. Living in Los Angeles with an open relationship that I'd grown oddly comfortable with was not the business.. and I knew it. Before I met my husband Stewart, I was growing bored, thinking of rekindling the reckless part.. that ship had sailed, and it was past time to grow up, get it right and figure it out.

Here I sit, nearly four years later. Sitting in our place in downtown Denver. Typing. Next to my now husband (the patient guy I spoke of earlier).. my breath of fresh air. My cat of nearly ten years soundly sleeping in what she has dubbed as her new sleeping spot, a cute grey basket. The loft smells of blueberries from the soap I made last evening for my company. I'm not worried.. about anything.. my eyes have seen the promise land.

I have found the perfect fit.

On a Colorado Note: The Thursday Files: It Just Gets Better with Time

My life is so full and blessed. At this point, there are so many wonderful things happening with me and around me, that it's getting difficult to keep up.. that's the sort of problem to have.

Blessings, laughs, happiness, and love. That's what the Thursday Files is about this week.

Sunday started with one of our favorite families, the Miceli's. Baby Mia was baptized this day. We always love seeing all of them.. they are a part of our family, nothing but love.

Monday found us at the pre screening of the Great Gatsby with more of our favorites, Mia & Greg.. and new friends Allyson and Mark. A whole lot of funny that evening.. oh yah, and the movie was good also.. :)

I spoke with the Womens Bean Project Tuesday, which was so wonderful. This is another womens organization that I will work with starting in June. I simply cannot wait.

The "swag" for the Kink and Curls Natural Hair Meet Up swag bag is what's hiding in these goodies. Had fun getting them all prepped and ready for send off!

So Wednesday it rained all day.. whatever. I had the chance to fine tune 303 Dolls newest addition, The Poppy Block.. and let me just tell you, it's frickin awesome.

.. Why yes, that is my husband and I sitting at the 9 News desk. I was there for a seminar this morning with my best friend, and it was just all of that. The seminar offered me a myriad of new ideas to use for the company. The cherry on top was meeting all of our favorite newscasters.. oh that was divine!

I'm putting in the work, putting my best foot forward, and life is feeling right. Let me tell you..  it just gets better with time.

On a Colorado Note: The Thursday Files on a Late Friday Night because.. Bloody Hell, it's Been a Busy Week!

Last week ended in a spectacular way.. great introduction into this week.. <3 My husband is such a rock star, just love him.

That's Tucker and Quay, a kick ass pilot. Yes, pilot. My husband went gliding last Saturday.. AWESOME!! So many amazing photos, videos, as well as video footage of the day.. just the beginning.. :-)



It has been one heck of a busy week. More than once I have literally had to stand in place because I felt like my head was spinning with a myriad of things. Between what I would be doing in the moment and knowing what I needed it to be doing next.. whew.. but I know that busy is a good thing, as long as I make sure to make time for the "serenity"moments.. which usually consists of evening tea, my favorite 70's songs.. or a cuddle with my main man.

So this was Monday.. photo shoot at the Downtown Embassy for my spread in Crave. Much love to the photographer John.. the photos were excellent.. I don't think it was completely apparent that I got four hours of sleep.. well.... in a few photos it was ;)

Playing around with my Tucker. I cropped my cleavage out of the shot because.. well.. that's why his eyes are not looking into the camera.

So this is Tuesday.. yah.. on May Day. What nerve.

Rewind back to Sunday.. had to go to Park Meadows Mall. While there, I happened across this beautiful bangle by Duru Oluwu, a Nigerian born fashion designer who is now out of London and has an amazing fashion line. Respect.

Wednesday, Thursday and Friday consisted of various appointments.. and the making of these.. the fliers and "swag bag" items for the Curls and Kinks United, Natural Beauties Meet Up Day. I've been excited about this for quite some time.. YES!

and then.. there's the wonderful thing of once again being able to offer women who are starting over again goodie bags courtesy of 303 Dolls Face + Body, partnering with the wonderful organization Safehouse Denver. This is where all of the head spinning and busy moments takes a moment, inhales, and smiles.